I will keep you company through those days so long and black.

well

2007-08-19T03:18:35Z

it's been a while, no?
I don't even know what to say.

I'm slowly falling inlove.
we've been spending everyday together
Josh.
we've been together for about a month.
I know I always bitch at people for saying they love people after only a short amount of time
and I don't do that with people
but there is something diffrent about this one.
I donno. I feel really stupid saying that i'm falling for him
but the feeling is there
and it scares me
partcialy becasue it's happening SOOO fast
and partcialy because I...I'm just scared of love I suppose.

I'm worried about hurrican Dean
it's said that it's most likely going to be just as bad as Katrina
that is, IF it hits here.
which I hope it doesn't.
but the chanses of it hitting anywhere else are rare.
I'm worried about my New Orleans.

anyway...
I donno.
I start school Monday.
NOT looking forward to it.
but I figure it's best to just get it over with, ya know?
hopefully I wont have to go to summer school YET AGAIN.
*growls*

my dog, tippsy, is amazing, as always.
I love her to death.
i've had her for a bit over a year now.
like... a year and a week actually.

friend life is complicated.
only not complicated at all.
I just over think things is all.

how yall been???

280slut @ 2007-05-24T21:59:00

2007-05-25T03:11:25Z

how pathetic I was
I always look back at old entry's and think
"WTF?! I can't believe that's me!"

yet, I'm still pathetic.
for I know that one day I'll look back on this
and think the exact same thing.

you don't need to know about my life
at least,
I don't feel like writing about it.

my life
in VERY short:
-have a wounderful dog
i'm inlove with her
her name's Tippsy.
and I've had her almost a year now.
-lost my virginity
--to my asshole ex. that betrayed me.
---and broke my heart
-a few [best]friends have let me down.
-I love my family
--mom, dad, siblings.
-brother graduated from college
--we hate his ex. [fucking slut]
-I'm still a horny little bitch
--only not a virgin
---wanna fuck?

yea, I'm already disgusted with myself reading over this.

I feel like being artsy.
so, I'm off to fool around with the assortment of markers in my room.

peace.

who's birthday?

2006-02-12T06:34:11Z

GUESS WHAT?!

It's my BIRTHDAY and I'm stoned

and it's only 12:33 in the morning.

teeheehee

280slut @ 2006-01-02T14:40:00

2006-01-02T20:56:36Z

holy fuck, i miss people
well, i thought i would be gettin internet at home around x-mas.
truns out, bellsouth isnt hooking everything up till the end of Feb.
that means i wouldnt be able to make plans for my b-day
AND that i would be deprived of some of the best people on earth for TWO more MONTHS.
but my parents are THINKING about getting cox because they're already all hooked up and everything.
Mary, Kelly, and Eve.
I NEED to see yall.
you have no idea how crazy im going.

this semester i wount be in this class, it was only for one semester...
so, if i dont get internet, i will have NO way to contact people.

my brother got his hair cut and shaved his beard off.
he's such an attractive guy.
with a little more conditioner, he'll practecly look like he used to
but he's staying in Austin.

and I cant stop thinking baout Andrew.
how wierd.
I mean hell, i moved back like 3 months ago...
i only knew him for a month
and im still thinking of him?

YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE I'M THINKING OF?!
the Lakeview days.
walking around in the heat with Kelly smoking a bowl whenever we wanted.
but, the part i miss most...
is the stoners den.
Mary's house was like my second house
I loved her house so much
and i never realized it till Katrina
Mary, if you dont come back to N.O. i WILL hunt you down and KILL you... i love you.
I cant stop thinking about my "house" you know, the playground of St.D
sitting behind r.a. under the dupster for shade while Kelly and I smoked a bowl.
the ally ways... and my favorite part "girls...and they're SMOKIN!"
I miss the geese.
passing around Ol' Smoky.

i could go on forever... but i cant... school is almost over and i need to post a private post with my moms cell number... the onyl way you can reach me... she doesn't mind as long as you dont call on weekdays before 7pm.

i miss yallll!

280slut @ 2005-11-11T10:42:00

2005-11-11T16:55:06Z

er, i'll bo going home today
to a no internet/phone house
that's later, though.... after my mom is done with her meeting.
in the mean time, I'm soaking up all the internet i can!
tomorrow I get to see KRISTENNNNNNN
then hopefully tomorrow night i get to go to CYPRESSSS and see KELLYYYYYYYYY
and stay out with her? or no?
I'm confused about that part
but, I'll still get to see her
♥

I feel dirty...
I think I'm gonna go back to the hotel room...

i lurverz you.

♥

sorry

2005-11-11T03:16:21Z

I ment everything I said
but I didn't mean it so bitchy.

I don't have my meds with me, I forgot them at home
and I'm on my period... I always PMS

so, I apologize.

sorry.

♥

rant to all my shitty ass friends.

2005-11-10T21:14:12Z

pissed of at 97% of my friends currently.

the only two that read this that im not nessacerally pissed at are Catherine and Whitney.
Kristen is the other that im not pissed at, but she doesnt have lj.

let me just fucking say...
y'all are some REALLY great fucking friends.
I invite you over
I try to go over there
NEITHER WORK SO YOU SAY "next weekend"
I hear nothing from you after that, even when I try to get intouch with you
WHICH IS REALLY FUCKING HARD FOR ME SEEING I DONT HAVE INTERNET OR A PHONE.
act as if i'm not here
i don't fucking exist.
I'm the only one back in New Orleans
you'd think I'm depressed enough driving through lakeveiw just to get fucking food.. just to go to fucking school.
so, I try to go out on the weekends
my parents would be willing to drive me to BR or anywhere that isn't over 2 hours away.
which most of the places my friends are ARENT.
most of my friends are 45min to and hour away.
I try to get intouch.
I try and try.
you ignor and ignor.
THANKS A WHOLE FUCKING LOT.
you know something?
I dont do ANYTHING on the weekends anymore...
AT ALL.
I've been sober for over three months
and no cigs, either.
so, those can't be substitutes for friends.

I have Kristen.(she actually came BACK just for ME... now that's a good friend)
and GOD, do I love her.
I love her to death.

other then her, though...
fuck you.

you know my meds are upped?
150 to 300
THREE FUCKING HUNDRED.
and they still aren't helping much.

other than Kristen and my parents... I actually AM fucking alone.
and I have all of you to thank for it.
so, THANKS... I just wanted to let you know how invisible and shitty you make me feel.
some friends yall are.

CATHERINE, IF YOU READ THIS, COMMENT, I MISS YOU! I'll give you my moms cell number or something...
i love you.

I actually really do hope yall feel guilty... I really do.
you fucking deserve it.
I've been there for ALL of you.
I TRY to see you.
I WANT to see you.
in other words... I've done the opposite of all of yall.

.FUCK.YOU.

[in Bossier City. bother parents went out of town i had to follow one so I came with my mom.)

I could tell you some good news
but, you wouldnt want to hear it, would you?
it doesn't even have to do with any of you.
just my FAMILY.
you know, they are right... your family WILL always be there but your friends WOUNT.

thanks a WHOLE fucking lot.

ass.

280slut @ 2005-10-17T14:59:00

2005-10-17T20:04:16Z

I'm at school
we don't have internet at home
and wont for another month
because we don't even have a phone

i miss my Kellllllllly!

we went to clean out my brothers house yesterday and i found one if his bongs...
he fucking gave it to me.
sure, i have to clean it with bleach and water and shit
but it's BEAUTIFUL.
Kelly, you'de love it

he also gave me an insence holder
in the shap of a shroom
and it turns purple and blue the more insence you burn
mhmm.

I want to see people.
someone come to my house from wherever they are
like... La Place... HINT HINT, KELLY.

280slut @ 2005-10-06T17:59:00

2005-10-06T23:00:46Z

psh

Steven will ALWAYS have my heart.

i wounder how the fuck he is.

I'm really worried
and have been since we got here two months(ish) ago.

280slut @ 2005-10-06T17:45:00

2005-10-06T22:53:14Z

my house was fine
like i said
and GUESS WHAT!!!

WE'VE GOT ELECTRISIY, WATER, AND GAS!!!!
we'll be moving back in within the next week.

my mom is coming here tomorrow
(she's in Metarie because if she didn't go back to work they would have fired her)
and she said that I can probly go back with her
Ann can't and so my dad would probly be staing
Sean i think has to finish out the semester at UT
ann can't come back because she has to take the Pre-SAT this Wednesday.

I'm going home, yall.
I CAN'T WAIT!

w00t.

lol, I would type all about what's happening in my school life but im to lazy
if i see you, ask me in person.
if not, sorry.

I CANT WAIT!

and i think someone can stay with ussssssssss

and I'll be able to see all my lovelys

*KISS*

i loveeee youuuu!

280slut @ 2005-09-29T10:02:00

2005-09-29T17:18:06Z

currently in my sister's dorm room on her laptop at LSU
yea, i went home yesturday
just my, my mom, and my dad
it didn't smell HALF as bad as i thought it would THaNK GOD.
and my house is PERFECTLY fine
other than my mom and dad's room in which the spot right above their bed leaked and got water and mold on their bed
which my mom is hapy about because that matress is about 20 or 30 years old and there is a permanint dent from where my dad sleeps
i mean, it's held up real well
and you would have no idea that it's that old
it's also real comfy
but they despratly need a new bed.
lol

I saw Mary's house
and Megan's house
my dad took pics(today) of Mary's(on his new digi) and once i get back i can send them to her
he only took two(i had NO MORE room left on mine AT ALL)
one of outside in the front and one of inside the living room
because right under the front window was a little hole that the gaurd people went in to see if anyone was alive or dead or even there
they would have gone through the door like they did in other houses but i'm guessing it was blocked tight

i took pics of Megan's house on my digi cam(yesterday)
I got on eof part of her kitchen where the window was broken
one of part of her bedroom where her window was also open
one or two of the living-room/den area when you first walk into the house
because the door was open enough for someone to get in
BUT no one was able to get in due to one of the couches RIGHT infront of the door
and i don't mean it was there in a way that made it easy to climb over it
it covered most of the door
and some of her outside
I also managed to salvage a picture album that was right outside her house of from when her mom was a little kid
there is still like 4 or 5 pics left that are fine

last night i staied at Aunt Mary's
who really isn't my Aunt or related to me at all, we just cal her that.
she lives in Metarie

I'm staing here tonight and some of tomorrow
then MEgan's mom is going ot come pick me up and I get to hang out and smoke with MEGAN all this weekend
I have some aderole pills to help us get moeny
and I have $76
and Ol' Smokey.
I've been needing a break
and to see some of my friends.

hopefully we'll be able to hang out with Mary this weekend too
since they are both in Baton Rouge.

I'm not going to read or reply to comments right now
I've done alot of rideing in a car
and i just want to lay down and relax

GUESS WHAT
we rented a place in MEtarie
it's small, but it's SOOOO cute
and i get my own room again finally
we are moving in in like two weeks or so

we'll take things from our house and whatnot
since the only damage done was that thing in my 'rents room and some roof damage that isn't that big od a deal
well, outside they have tree's ALL over the place
litarally blocking our drive way
well, most of it
you should have seen my dad get the Jeta out, it was so funny.

Lake Vista is ok for the most part
I think that that's where most of the tree damage was done, though.
St. Pius is fine
and i GOT TO SWINNNNNGGGGGG!!!!! w00t!
my smoking spot there has some weird thing covering it
I have a pic, I'll show you sooner or later.

I'm grose
I haven't taken a shower in so long
and once Sarah gets back from her class
she's gona give me shampoo and a towel and stuffffffff
i can't wait to take a shower!!!!

I feel like there is somethign that I forgot to type out
but whatever
I'm going to watch tv and lay down.

*kiss*

OH YEA,
Metarie is pretty much EXACTLLY how we left it.
it was like entering a whole diffrent world just going over that little bridge that leads Lakeveiw people into Metarie
it looked exactlly how i left it
which means Cypress is fine

OoOoOoOoOoO the Cure just came on
SWEET

lol, I'm off.

just seeing my hosue brought 5724908572409576 amounts of joy to my life
GOD, I MISSED MY ROOM!!!!
even though seeing lakeveiw was really depressing
at least I'm home
and that's all I care about right now
sure, Sunday I'm going back to Austin
but only for about two weeks.

"it's the grooviest thing, it's the perfect dream!"

"we missed you hissed the lovecats. *HISSSSSSSSSSS*"

"I love you let's go!!!!.....oh, solid gold!"

♥

soryr i'm not reading or anythign right now.

lalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaa

2005-09-21T22:52:33Z

MWAHAHHAHA
I'M ONE LUCKY SON OF A BITCH
AND ONCE I TELL Y'ALL THIS, YOU'LL AGREE...

PSHHH,
VOODOO IS COMING TO AUSTIN
TO ZILCKER(sp?) PARK
WHICH IS RIGHT BY WHERE I AM STAYING
I SAY THAT IT'S COMING EAITHER IN NOVEMBER
OR LATE OCTOBER
AND ON OCTOBER 1st I'LL BE MOVED INTO
A NEW HOUSE THAT WE'RE RENTING
AND PEOPLE CAN COME STAY WITH ME
I'M EXPECTING AT LEAST 2 PEOPLE
BUT WOULD BE OVER-JOYED IF MORE COULD COME
KELLY, you were the first person that came to mind but I don't know if your parents would be ok with it
and that scares me because I miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much... talk them into it ^.^
MARY, you HAVE to come... I don't know what I would do if you didn't... grrr, I can't live w ithout my Mary...
EVE, psh, where's the part if Eve isn't there? COME ON... seriously...
WHOEVER I DIDN'T MENTION
AND WANTS TO COME TO VOODOO[AND CAN GET A RIDE OUT HERE]
CAN STAY WITH ME
[considering that i know you, of course]

aaagh, enough caps....

I miss every one
so yall better come
it'll make me the happiest little girl in the world
and i could show of all my cooler friends from N.O.(yall) to the few other friends I have here
and we can smoke out of Ol' Smokey
this guy in my photography class said he can get me some connections for some GREAT stuff.

YOU KNOW WHAT?!?!
yea, guy's are hitting on me like CRAZY down here

specially the ones in my photography class

that guy with the connections, he isn't hitting on me
but he stares and he's really sweet

for guys I like it's a tose up between him and Andrew
Andrew is winning, i think
even though this other guy is more my 'normal type'(looks. personallity is DEFF my type, for both)
even though neither of them are my type he's just closer to it.
and guess what... they're REALLY close friends... lol
it sucks that i can't remeber his name
and i feel really bad about it.
eh, WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.
and I hope SOMEONE makes a move SOON...

SOMETHIUNG THAT IS REALLY STARTING TO PISS ME OFF...
my math teacher calls me ROSA-LIND
at first I didn't care, not feeling liek correcting her
hoping she'll understand by other people calling me ROS-A-LIND
that she doesn't say my name correctlly
i was wrong
holy SHIT i was wrong...
and now it's starting to piss me off to NO END
and there is nothing I can do about it
because I can't correct her NOW
after 3-4 weeks of school...
jeeze.

(oh yea, I didn't go to school today... I felt sick which really means I felt badly because of lack of rest and being really stressed out and worried and stuuuuufffff)

god, I'm so lonely
I miss people

and right now, I have no one to ang out with on the weekends
I'm hoping it'll change soon
but have a feeling it wount.
*GAH*

I've gotten over being mad at Megan a while ago
and things are FINALLY 98% normal with us again
and i miss her
LOOK AT THIS:

ISN;T THAT SOOOOO FUCKING SWEET!?!?!??!?!
omg, I'm inlove with it.
and it makes me miss megan even more...
*whimper*

I'm bored with writting now...
sorry.
lol

♥

ps-THE LACK OF HUMIDITY IN THIS PLACE IS REALLY ANNOYING... YOU WOULD THINK IT WOULD BE GOOD BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOO, MY FACE JUST HAS TO BE ABNORMALLY PEELING...so I have to keep putting mostierizer and makeup over my acne... because it's peeling.
not helping my acne but there is NOTHING i can do about that!!!

pps-I GET POPEYES FOR DINNER.....FINNALY NEW ORLEANS FOOD!!!(incase ya didn't know, Popeyes was created/founded/whatever in N.O.)

280slut @ 2005-09-19T20:23:00

2005-09-20T01:23:58Z

DID YOU KNOW THAT THEY ARE STILL GOING TO HAVE VOODOO FEST?!?~?!
THEY'RE JUST RE-LOCATING IT.
I'M GOING TO LOOK IT UP LATER
AND I'LL TELL YOU EVERYTHING I FIND OUT!

280slut @ 2005-09-19T20:09:00

2005-09-20T01:09:13Z

You scored as Hippy.

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100%

Goth

50%

Loser

44%

Nerdy Girl

44%

Athletic Tomboy

38%

Slut

38%

Popular Bitch

31%

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280slut @ 2005-09-13T21:04:00

2005-09-14T02:39:55Z

PHOTOGRAPHY CLASS??!?!?!

yea, I'm taking it.
and I LOVE it.
and the people in it are AWESOME.
i don't feel like talking about the rest of the school, though.

first off, let me just say something....
I haven't heard from Steven
and I'm used to the fact that I wount for awhile
so, back in my normal love rutine thing
I'm kinda "eh, whatever" on the Steven thing

BECAUSE I have a NEW love intreste
and don't worry, he's only one year older than me
he's not my normal type
but he's fun
and I like that he cares.
so, he likes me
no, he didn't tell me
but it's just obviouse
plus one of my/his friends told me.
I tell you, the people in my photography class are AWESOME.
he sits next to me
his name is ANDREW.
I normally go for [guys] taller than me
with dark hair
and eyes that stand out.
he's the same height as me
he has blond hair
and hazel eyes
yes, I like brown eyes with blond hair
but preffer dark hair and light eyes.
he's kinda cute
and he's really sweet
and really funny
and something that's good for me, he talks alot.
he sits next to me in photography

I have a feeling something might happen
only if we stay in Texas for a while longer
which I think we will
since our house is FINE [w00t](NO flooding AT ALL and just a tree fell but we don't know if it caused roof damage or if it's just leaning on the house[neighbors went to look at their house and looked at ours for us-mom && dad asked])
we wount be renting a place
so, we'll just wait till we are allowed back in N.O.
and that wount be for a while, I'm guessing.

I've suddenly lost intrest in writting about that subject.

Ann and I have been getting along soooo well
Sean came
and I'm happy.
I miss my loves
mainly my top three loves
Kelly
Mary
and
Eve

then of course would HHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE to be Clayton.

ok, I lost intrest in this whole thing a while ago
damn A.D.D.

280slut @ 2005-09-05T15:09:00

2005-09-05T20:10:06Z

--- PERFECT HUSBAND ---

Several men are in the locker room of a golf club. A cell phone on a
bench rings and a man engages the hands free speaker-function and begins to
talk. Everyone else in the room stops to
listen.

MAN:
"Hello"

Woman: "Honey, it's me. Are you at the club?"

MAN:
"Yes"

Woman: "I am at the mall now and found this beautiful leather coat.
It's only $1,000. is it OK if I buy it?"

MAN: "Sure. go ahead if you like
it that much."

Woman: "I also stopped by the Lexus dealership and saw the
new LX 470 SUV. I saw one I really liked."

MAN: "How much?"

Woman:
"$90,000"

MAN: "OK, but for that price I want it with all the
options."

Woman: "Great! Oh, and one more thing...The house I wanted last
year is back on the market. They're asking $950.000"

MAN: "Well, then go
ahead and give them an offer of $900.000. They will probably take it. If not, we
can go the extra 50 thousand. It is clearly a pretty good price."

Woman:
"OK, I'll see you later! I love you so much!!!"

MAN: "bye! I love you,
too" the man hangs up. The other men in the locker room are staring at him in
astonishment, mouths agape...

He smiles and asks: "Anyone know who this
phone belongs to?"

280slut @ 2005-09-05T12:00:00

2005-09-05T17:01:12Z

*01 . Tell her she is beautiful (not hot, fine, or sexy)
*02 . Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
*03 . Kiss her on the forehead.
*04 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
*05 . Always tell her you love her every second of the day.
*06 . When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
*07 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
*08 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
*09 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
*10 . Write her notes. (she loves them)
*11 . Introduce her to family and friends . . . as your girlfriend.
*12 . Play with her hair.
*13 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.
*14 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
*15 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.
*16 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night . . . just because you missed her. (but don't break the window. lol)
*17 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
*18. ~~Carve your names into a tree.~~(don't do that, asshole)
*19 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
*20 . Give her piggyback rides.
*21 . Bring her flowers just because.
*22 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
*23 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
*24 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
*25 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
*26 . Kiss her in the rain.
*27 . If your in love with her . . . tell her.

280slut @ 2005-09-04T23:52:00

2005-09-05T04:53:44Z

I have to pee.

I love this song.

No one is online.

pppsh, whatever.

♥

280slut @ 2005-09-04T23:49:00

2005-09-05T04:50:50Z

xcore_hotties

psh, I hate promoting
but this place is lubberly.
GO JOIN, BITCHES.

I'll love you forever
♥

280slut @ 2005-09-03T16:09:00

2005-09-03T21:12:08Z

OH YEA,
I'm still a D.
just a small D.

and I got new underwear
and a new bra
and new shirts
and new skirts

OH SHIT!

"with a face like Bob Marley
and a mouth like a motor bike"

"saw you in you bedroom suckin' someone else's..."

280slut @ 2005-09-03T15:39:00

2005-09-03T21:06:24Z

my tummy hurts
on and off.
it's REALLY annoying.
I don't realy care about school, anymore.
We'll talk to them about putting me and Ann in the same lunch
so we aren't alone.
Sean is in Chicago with Marie.
he's freaking out
because Chicago is SO big.
so he might stay up there, be a bum and get a job or go to college
OR he might come down here
and hang out with us.
GOD I HOPE HE DOES!
I miss my brother.
Marie and I had a fight
because she's really dramatic
and I'm a bitch.
BUT we are good now
because she took pitty on me with the whole school thing
when I was freaking out.
I was never mad at her
that's how it normally is.
I get annoyed because she acts like we should all feel so bad for her
like she should come first
BECAUSE SHE'S WAY TO FUCKING DRAMATIC
and I would just tell her when and why she would be annying me
so she would hold a grudge about that
and be all "I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU, YOU HURT MY FEELINGS!"
we hae a weird relationship
sometimes she's my favorite sister of all time
sometimes she's my least favorite.
NEVER in the middle.
it's weird.

I felt like ranting about that, stfu.

I lost one of my earings
which bits
because I only brought one pare
and I feel weird without earings
just liek I feel weird with out rings, braclets, necklaces, and eyeliner.
me with my goddamn unneeded shit.

you guys, I'm OBSESSED with movies.
I think I might become a movie critic..
that wouldn't work
becuase I love almost every movie I see
no matter HOW bad it is.

"I smoke two joints in the morning,
I smoke two joints at night,
I smoke two joints in the afternoon,
it makes me alright."

"I smoke two joints before
I smoke two joints
and then I smoke two more"

I LUBBERS SUBLIME, YO.

280slut @ 2005-09-01T23:44:00

2005-09-02T04:49:44Z

I know you're sick of me talking about him, but...

2005-09-02T04:26:43Z

thinking about how Steven might have staied behind
is the only thing that is makin gme cry.
it takes a lot to make me cry
i don't cry much when someone dies(unless it's not a natural thing like illness... if it's suicide or murder[someone i know only, though] i can't stop.)
i'm not cring
i wont let myself.
steven is just the only one who knew me THAT well.
he has so much power over me emotonally it's not even funny
just like I have power over him emotonally
and it's scary
to thinkthat he's still at his place
with all the lootering
and shooting
and all that shit
I'm just scared
REALLY REALLY scared.
I would give ANYthing to hear from him.
ANYTHING.

however dramatic this may fucking sound
I wouldn't want to live
if he wasn't.
I just want to know he's ok
and alive
and out of New Orleans.

i need a distraction
and a razor.
this is one time
that I really wouldn't blame myself for cutting
and i really want to.
more than i ever have, i think.

gr;sluhg;osrhd;lfg

bah

280slut @ 2005-09-01T17:35:00

2005-09-01T22:36:31Z

40 Year Old Virgin may be the BEST movie ever.
go see it...
NOW.

we'll slow dance and fast dace and clap clap clap our hands.

2005-09-01T06:06:07Z

you know something?
this is 100% TRUE.

you are most like the hidden angel. you like to
play around, but you are very quite.yet when
you have to you say the right thing on perfect
timing you aren't very sociable, like the storm
angel, but you are easy to make friends. since
you are shy you like to play by your self, but
when you are with your friends you cling to
them like a magnet. you are a playful child
inside, which everyone likes in you. you are
very special. hidden means you just like to
stay hidden from others, and you do a lot by
yourself, but don't forget you have many
friends, that you like to hang out with. try to
hang out more, and don't keep every thing
inside HIDDEN. let yourself go. you are very
clingy to some one like the rainbow angel. you
are unique and very creative. don't like that
playfulness escape from you. exellent job. ;)

what kind of angel suits you the best(cool anime pics)
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ok, so maybe I do have a house.
it was said that we can't go back for 6 monthes, that's not true, it's only like 2 or 3 months.
I was told that i only have like 2 or 3 feet of water in my house
but i was also told(and don't believe) that it's to the roof.

my camara should be fine, if it's only like one or two feet.
I have a feeling things in the house situation will work out
but I'm freaking out about everything else.
mostly my friends.
because I feel like I'm going to lose everyone.
the only people i know I wont lose are Mary and Eve (and Megan).
if it wasn't for Mary, I might lose Eve, but I know I wount.

I've been realizing and even though it makes me feel really fucking lonely, I came to terms with the fact that I don't really have a 'best friend' anymore. I mean, I have a few, but no number one.
what about Kelly, you ask?
I love her to death(yes I DOOOOOO!!) but I feel like she's become closer to someone else. closer than she is with me.
I mean, I know I was always pretty quiet
and I think that might be why she's gotten closer to someone else... because it's easy.
I could be wrong though. I don't know, and either way, I don't mind.
Kelly is still at the top of my list and I lubbers her, no matter what.

I read yall journals, but REALLY don't feel like commenting
I will tomorrow.
sorry.
♥

this whole thing really woke me up about Steven
because I, thinking back on it now, HAVE always loved him.
what we had wasn't something you could easily break.
well, he was in a bad time of his life
and the person that did all that to me, is not the same person as Steven Montrell D---.
I'm not saying that I would get back with him straight away
I'm not saying that at all.
first we would need to have a loooooong talk
settle things
it may hurt, but I'll have to bring up our past.

jgao;ughskdgh

I don't know if that will ever happen, though.
I have no clue if I'll ever talk to him again.
I'm freaking out about that most.
I just want to be with him, you know?
i mean just to hang out.

you don't have to listen to me complaine anymore, I'll stop.

it's kinda cold in here.